tired

"You don't get it, do you?
Have all the romantic fantasies you want. I'm happy for you to have them.
Except your fantasies take place in my past and, sorry, I lived through it.
None of it is as simple and clean as your want it to be.
Nothing ever will be
unless you are blessed or very very carefully ignorant."

"Maybe this as old as i get this time around and i get to go now."